.: Seasonality Feelings :.

so long i never have this feelings dy... suddenly d weird feeling come bac again.... i know 1 of these days i sure will 4get it.... i joz need time... this is wat i tell myself... all the time..... i must not be bother by it anymore....

i'm coping it with all my determinations... i am not d past person i used to be anymore... everything has changed... SLOWLY... without noticing... it this called grown up??? i dunno....

i am undergo-ing REFORMING now.... the process is like eating bitter medicine.... it is hard and difficult to swallow all the things at the beginning... but d results of it is d most important..... hopefully i can go through all these barriers by my own.... at least proof to myself that i had grown up.....

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this sem.... i feel i become very lazy and sluggish... i love to procrastinate.... will do everything on last mins... study for exams.... lab test.... assignments.... i joz giving excuses for tat...

joz now i got lab test.... i had prepared for tat... but my stupidness n carelessness caused me din notice d paper have 2 pages.... i joz finish 1 page.... n glad tat i know how 2 do... so dumb n silly.... luckily my lec called me n giv me a 2nd chances...

this lessons let me feel tat this world is full of hopes... one will have the "take 2" opportunities in life if they are given a second chances.... i wanna keep this thankful feelings... to remind me it is important to giv a person a 2nd chances... so i decided to wrote this down...

** i promised myself not 2 b so spiritless n lazy... i must live my coming Uni life to the fullest...**

.: Everything starts with Thought :.

Control ur thoughts, else it will turn into words;

Control ur words, else it will turn into actions;

Control ur actions, else it will turn into behavior;

Control ur behavior, else it will turn into characteristics;

Control ur characteristics, else it will ruin ur life~~

Hence, the moral value is we must control well our thoughts in order to form a good characteristics..

Perhaps, should start control d DEVIL in d heart from now~~

.: 压力？ :.

最近这个星期的我像似电脑机器人。。每天的生活只有上课，然后就急忙敢回家做assignment。。每天每天都是如此。。没有暂停过。。天天睡前和醒来都会告诉自己说挨过了这星期就自由了。。真的说了也未必相信。。我连做梦都是assignment。。。一天平均对着电脑12个小时。。除了晚餐时间走出校门拿cater和上厕所的时间以外，其余的时间就坐在电脑前一直做assignment。。有时我还怀疑我的近视有没有加深。。都已是很丑的四眼田鸡了，如近视再加深的话，就必须配戴更丑的眼镜了。。。。 救命啊！！

我都不是处女座的人。。。 为什么我会对我的assignment要求得如此完美呢？我会为了我的assignment拼命。。我不介意做比别人多，晚晚才睡，弄得腰酸背疼，在黑暗中对着电脑打字，只要我觉得满意就好。。但可恶的恶魔有时会在我耳边对我说：“你很笨！！为什么别人说不会你就把它扛起来？？明明自己的部分都还没做完，又再加重自己的负担。。”但冷静了以后，可爱的天使又告诉我说：“帮助别人等于帮助自己。。人要时常学习付出，不要因计较而不伸出援手。。”

无形的压力总会尾随着繁忙的生活。。刚才阅读网上报导说有人因压力而选择自尽。。很可惜。。我不会做多余的言论，因每个人有自己的选择权，外人是很难了解的。。很庆幸的是我如今虽然天天面对做不完的 assignment，但我还没有感觉到压力。。

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上个星期三我勉强抽出一个晚上的时间参加中秋晚会。。真的是新人新作风。。场地布置的很好，很有中秋的feel。。。可以感觉得到他们真的很用心筹备这中秋。。还有一群完全不熟悉面孔的工委。。很不错的筹备。。我想他们会觉得奇怪为什么会有几个想我们这样那么sampat又不知天高地厚的人。。我们玩得比工委还疯。。根本把它当做我们自己的活动。。跳舞及游街时比他们还high。。哈哈。。唯一不足的地方就是参与者太少了。。 过后在偶然之下和其中一位筹办者在线上谈起，他觉得很遗憾及失望。。因他觉得活动再好，如没有参与者，一切都归零。。其实，这心情我在很早以前就有过了。。虽会安慰自己和别人说过程比结果重要，只要有人会欣赏我们的活动，就算是一个都好就是成功了。。但在内心深处，总会觉得不值。。花了这么多的心思及努力，换来的只是小猫两三只的参与者，心里一定一定会不好受。。我了解你如今的感受。。我知道他不会看我的部落格，但我会在心里默默的支持他。。因为我了解在学会里打拼总会遇到很多很多的挫折。。在低潮时最需要的是别人的聆听和关怀及一个可以诉苦的对象。。所有学会的战士们，加油吧！！

.: National Day :.

2day is Malaysia national day.. as 1st i plan to go times square shopping as i've waited long time.. but my laziness caused me to wake up late.. so lip suggest to drive to sunway piramid as it already 3pm.. at 1st we plan to eat Genki sushi as it is our favourite.. plus we hav jusco card now.. got extra 10% off.. but to our surprise, d shop had been closed and d actual place is replaced by another sushi outlet.. so we turn to 上海拉面小笼包..

after enter the restaurant, i request to the waitress who serve us that we wish to sit near the window.. the screne outside is nice.. it is sunway logoon..

The environment there is quite unique.. the decoration is with Chinese style.. the waitress oso wearing cheongsam..

冬菇肉饼芙蓉蛋饭 (RM15++) mince pork with egg on fragrants rice..

香菜饭拌黑猪扒 (RM15++) Fried rice with black pepper pork chop..

四川辣子鸡丁 (RM20++) Very crispy and got a bit spicy.. chef recommended..

桂花酒酿汤圆 (RM8++)
it is not like other dessert that is sweet.. it tasted sour as it is made by rice wine.. not quite suitable for me.. i dun like sour soup..

before start his meals.. innocent look**

me* me* me*..

d drinks beside me is called 茅根竹蔗马蹄水(RM5++)

The meal tat day itself cost RM72++.. for me it is not worth it as the food is joz normal except the szechuan chicken.. with the same amount we could have a better food instead.. but nvm la.. lip like it..

Baskin Robin ice cream.. glupp~ glupp~ it is 31st of the month so we had a 31% discount on the ice-cream we bought.. the queue was so long.. wondering y so many ppl love to eat tat ice-cream.. our favourite macadamia is sold out when the time we buy so we choose cookies cream and cappucino ice-cream..