.: Hints? :.

"Talking is always good, but doing is much better today! This is a great time for taking action -- signing documents, starting projects, and making your big romantic move. Open your mind to the idea that you are ready to go. Stop waiting for someone else to take you by the hand and tell you it's time -- it is not going to happen. You have been procrastinating too long. You need to just start putting things in motion and all of your confidence will come later."

This is wat my horoscopes (Aries) from friendster said 2day... i always very believe in it as to me it is quite true sometimes.. Is it giv me any hint or implications tat i need to make my decisions dy? i had really procrastinate my time too long dy on this stuff...

Many questions had pop up in my mind since i decided to took up this event... but the more i care about it, the more anxiety appear in my mind... i had no confidence to make it a success? or i scare to work in a team which i'm not confident with? or i scare how others look at me? or i'm afraid to be a leader again? or worry i cant tackle with my FYP? or i still cant put down d things? or i anxious not enough time to run an event?

when i 1st decided to contribute to my society, i think of many ways to make it a success... i reallly do wish it will has a great achievement and acomplishment... at least d problem facing by the society now will be settled after my event.... i really appreciate and love this society very much... sometimes i will ask myself y so many seniors do not hav d heart in it? y they like to spread rumours or bad words bout this society? y even the members or cadre of the society oso act like tat... it is really heart broken when i saw or hear it.....

come back to the point.... do i really need to make my decisions and make up my mind now? izzit like how he said, there is no1 other than me more suitable dy? am i trying to evade anything? or i need some care n concern? all i wanna is joz a person to encourage me to move forward... a person to back me up when i'm nervous... a person to tell me i'm capable... a person to trust me tat i can make it... tat's all i wanna... but is it tat hard?

i believe every1 will only look at 1 sided... wont change their perspective to look at d other side tat y i'm tat hard to make d decision... y i always wanna evade... hope tat really will hav this person appears in my life to help me....

.: Life :.

Behind every success is AMBITION

Behind every ambition is EFFORT

Behind every effort is some1 who is WILLING TO TRY~~!!!

.: Shopping Spree :.

say NO to YES (Year End Sales)....

i think every young folks oso hav this kind of thinking when it comes to d tempting sales all around... shopping is definately activities to every1 at this particular period since christmas and CNY is approaching...

i enjoy d feelings of shopping around with frenz... not "shopping" actually... is kinda gathering.. freed our minds after a week of hectic lectures and tutorial... watch movie... snap pics around... having lunch.... jokings.... looking for pretty gals 2gather.... it's really FUN~~!!

1st Outing

Date: 14/11/2008

Time: 10.30am - 10.30pm

Destinations: Times Square

Transport: 429 -> E1 -> monorial -> times square-> monorial -> LRT -> ERL -> 429

Participants: THE FOUR (a name after a tvb drama, quite nice story)

zyin a.k.a PS, the beer lover.... haha.... it's green tea la.... KF a.k.a BEAR, the food capturer.... look~~ he is so excited capturing d food with his "NEW" camera phone... he always has a baby face...LL a.k.a PLUTO, blur but natural look... d short hair he has... every1 says it is too short but to me it is nice and neat...

SD a.k.a HIPPO, introducing d fried udon.... not delicious + quite expensive... dun try it~~!!

me n ps plan to celebrate kf's belated bday as kf does not comes to penang as planned earlier during his bday.... we went for a movie (James Bond - Quantum of Solace).... to me, d movie is not tat attractive... i hav an aversion against action movie... moreover, i dun quite understand d story line from d beginning till d end... d characters in d movie oso not tat charming and good-looking...

***addition: we were bothered by some Maybank Salesman which tell us some grandmother stories on Takaful... he is quite polite n handsome.... haha... tat's y we were attracted to him n listen to him for almost 1 hour.... he is also quite persuasive as all of us almost fall into his trap... but at last we disappoint him as we r RATIONAL thinkers... haha...

d gals.... d beauties of d day~~

d guys.... d beasts of d day~~ man in black.....

four of us... with d "beers"... look at my sampat look, ps's sexy leg, kf funny small eyes n Lip's fake smile... good combinations....

us... in ERL... with d small bday cake.... can u c d eye catching strawberry?? guess wat.... it smells good... but according to kf, it is not tat tasty... wat la him... still complaining wo...

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2nd Outing

Date: 06/12/2008

Time: 11.00am - 9.30pm

Destinations: 1 Utama

Transport: 429 -> U43 -> 1U -> U43 -> 429

Participants:

LL, cowboy or personal guard??? fyi, he is wearing new shirts, new jeans n new sport shoes tat day.... n of course d so called "lala" sunglasses is not belongs to him...

Sam, the BLIND man... he loves to act cool when taking pics.... but COOL does not suit to his characteristics... he loves to jokes around.... he always complaining tat he has a chubby face tat makes him looks like he does not hav neck.... SD... d fat me... being complained by lip tat d blouse tat i'm wearing does not match my pants... aiksz....aHah... is it looks special?? it is BBQ Plaza... these are d food we ordered... pork set for 3-4 person... it looks a lot but actually it full of vege at d bottom... it cost bout RM60 for d meals....

YouHoo..... gonna start to eat lo....

wonder y sam loves to take pics of us... hahaha....

nice deco.... simple but striking... 1U old wing.....

theme of d christmas deco: alice in d wonderland.... 1U new wing....

.: Boring :.

Since my last event, 11th Orientation Series Events had significantly comes to an end last trimester, my life started to change from BUSY, HECTIC, OCCUPIED to DULL, BORING, TEDIOUS.... once, i do hav a strong feelings of not leaving d BIG family so soon as it really giv me a good memories n a place to learn lots of things but at last i must also believe tat it's time for me to lay down everything...

Suddenly feel tat i'm gtting older n older... no matter in aging, physically or mentally... sometimes i will behave like an old lady start thinking and flashing back d life i used to be when i 1st came into Uni life uncontrollable... time really flies n in a blink of eyes, it had comes to my final year of study life... i'll step into another stage of life tat every1 must encounter very soon.... kinda miss d innocent n childish me... although sometimes will get red eyes n bad critics from others who thought i'm acting innocent but i still enjoy d simple n uncomplicated lifestyle... i can cry when i'm gloomy n depressed n laugh happily when i'm in d chill mood....

Past SHINDEE:

Energetic, Active, Youthful, Innocent, Childish, Blur, Simple, Straightforward, Happy-go-lucky...

Current SHINDEE:

Pasive, Unmotivated, Complicated, Think-twice, Dunno how 2 express d feelings in my heart no matter verbally or written....

me~ me~ me~....

.: Vacations of Delta Trimester Break (cont'):.

DAY 2:

we woke up quite early d next morning as we know very well tat we paid for trip is for enjoying but not for sleeping... we r quite thrill as the plan for 2nd day was to play in d water for for d whole day....

here we start n let d pics do all d explaining....

blur blur look of KF... happy but sleepy look of PS... n energetic look of ME~~ wahaha.... we took this pic while waiting for d instructor...

our dry look b4 river croosing... d groupmates : me, lip, zyin, kf, choon, xuan hao n xin you n others.. sampat ppl form a sampat gang.... hehe...

our wet look after river crossing... to us who never been to national service b4 river crossing is quite nervous and exciting activity... d depth of d river is almost 30 metres...

to me, this is d most memorable activity of d trip... i love canoeing so so so much.... i love water activities.... I"M LOVIN' IT!!!! all of us were addicted to it until we almost forgotten about our lunch...

not only cinemas provide with couple seat... canoes oso come with "couple seat"... haha... don't play play yea... it's kinda fun....

after lunch, another water activity is awaiting for us... haha... look our funny pose... creative ya... it's water tubing...

"wat is water tubing?", i ask...

"it is an activity which u play with d tube (tayar)....", d committee told us...

haha... swt answer....

DAY 3:

we hav some kinds of weirdo sports which played by d natives there(according to d people in charge).... it's amusing and enjoyable as it is quite odd and fresh to c this kind of games.....

yoohoo.... it's team building activity... again in d river.... we made d raft ourselves.... do u believe it?? 6 tubes with 18 ppls on it... of course we hav swimmer "engines" in d water behind our raft to push us move faster....

does i mentioned bout d meals there?? it is super duperb EXPENSIVE!!! every meals cost us RM8... even breakfast with breads n economy fried bihun/rice which is not nice at all....

ta dang~~!! here it is... RM 8 "hotel breakfast"...

d last memory of all d participants and committees.... it is quite easy to spot me.... haha... coz i'm d only 1 wearing yellow blouse....

.: Vacations of Delta Trimester Break :.

Me n my close frens in my course had been discussed about d ENDAU ROMPIN TAMAN NEGARA trip since d tourism club started to set up d booth for registrations.... 2 of my frens decided to join on the trip at last.... they urge me to join as well as it's like a decade ago we been on a trip 2gather... it's a golden opportunity to relax with frens.....

at 1st i wanted to join on the trip but does not hav d courage to make on my own decisions.... as i always tell my frens tat i suspect myslef having DECISION MAKING PHOBIA..... i dare not make my own decisions.... dunno since when i turn into this weak characteristics.... hate it when i started to regret on d decisions tat i made.... but at last lip decides to go on the trip...

at 1st i got a little disappointed to d organizing committees as they never send any notifications to me about d trip tat they promised me during my payment of fees... at least my frens received their sms but i didn't received any...

DAY 1:

we push off from cyber on 19th of Nov 3am.... we feel so excited as it's our 1st time been to TAMAN NEGARA....

Our footstep... before depart....






My sleeping "look".... so clever huh hide inside d jacket as i know sure got some "culprit" like to take pics of sleeping...

After 7 hours of journey in d bus, at last we reach our destinations..... quite tired as cant really hav a nice sleep in d bus...

look at d words properly.... it's TAMAN NEGERI!!!! we came 2 d wrong place???? or we being fooled???? or d committees does not do an early research and site visiting??? we pay for TAMAN NEGARA~~

The 1st pic 4 of us took 2gather.... all in black.... wahahaha.....

Our Group~~ David(1st person), our leader.....

Preparing to go on our 1st activity of the trip...

JUNGLE TREKKING~~

also can be known by LITCHES SEEKING~~ coz most of d time we only look at d ground to avoid d scary litches.....

The great waterfall.... my 1st time 2 c such a nice scene of waterfall with my own eyes.... it is like d waterfall we always seen in movie tat located in china....

after came bac from jungle trekking, we feel like our legs and body are not belongs to us...

it is so so so tired after walk for 4 hours non stop... but it is a good experience for ppl like me who does not like exercise... we sweat a lot...

tat nite we went to bed quite early... coz d nite activity was canceled n we are totally free after dinner...

but but but~~!!! this is wat we saw b4 we went to bed... tat makes me n zyin, who sleep on d floor, cant hav a nice sleep for d whole nite....

a GIGANTIC lizard... i bet none of d folks who spend their whole life in d city seen this creatures b4... it is about 30cm... SCARY~~!!!

.: Seasonality Feelings :.

so long i never have this feelings dy... suddenly d weird feeling come bac again.... i know 1 of these days i sure will 4get it.... i joz need time... this is wat i tell myself... all the time..... i must not be bother by it anymore....

i'm coping it with all my determinations... i am not d past person i used to be anymore... everything has changed... SLOWLY... without noticing... it this called grown up??? i dunno....

i am undergo-ing REFORMING now.... the process is like eating bitter medicine.... it is hard and difficult to swallow all the things at the beginning... but d results of it is d most important..... hopefully i can go through all these barriers by my own.... at least proof to myself that i had grown up.....

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this sem.... i feel i become very lazy and sluggish... i love to procrastinate.... will do everything on last mins... study for exams.... lab test.... assignments.... i joz giving excuses for tat...

joz now i got lab test.... i had prepared for tat... but my stupidness n carelessness caused me din notice d paper have 2 pages.... i joz finish 1 page.... n glad tat i know how 2 do... so dumb n silly.... luckily my lec called me n giv me a 2nd chances...

this lessons let me feel tat this world is full of hopes... one will have the "take 2" opportunities in life if they are given a second chances.... i wanna keep this thankful feelings... to remind me it is important to giv a person a 2nd chances... so i decided to wrote this down...

** i promised myself not 2 b so spiritless n lazy... i must live my coming Uni life to the fullest...**

.: Everything starts with Thought :.

Control ur thoughts, else it will turn into words;

Control ur words, else it will turn into actions;

Control ur actions, else it will turn into behavior;

Control ur behavior, else it will turn into characteristics;

Control ur characteristics, else it will ruin ur life~~

Hence, the moral value is we must control well our thoughts in order to form a good characteristics..

Perhaps, should start control d DEVIL in d heart from now~~

.: 压力？ :.

最近这个星期的我像似电脑机器人。。每天的生活只有上课，然后就急忙敢回家做assignment。。每天每天都是如此。。没有暂停过。。天天睡前和醒来都会告诉自己说挨过了这星期就自由了。。真的说了也未必相信。。我连做梦都是assignment。。。一天平均对着电脑12个小时。。除了晚餐时间走出校门拿cater和上厕所的时间以外，其余的时间就坐在电脑前一直做assignment。。有时我还怀疑我的近视有没有加深。。都已是很丑的四眼田鸡了，如近视再加深的话，就必须配戴更丑的眼镜了。。。。 救命啊！！

我都不是处女座的人。。。 为什么我会对我的assignment要求得如此完美呢？我会为了我的assignment拼命。。我不介意做比别人多，晚晚才睡，弄得腰酸背疼，在黑暗中对着电脑打字，只要我觉得满意就好。。但可恶的恶魔有时会在我耳边对我说：“你很笨！！为什么别人说不会你就把它扛起来？？明明自己的部分都还没做完，又再加重自己的负担。。”但冷静了以后，可爱的天使又告诉我说：“帮助别人等于帮助自己。。人要时常学习付出，不要因计较而不伸出援手。。”

无形的压力总会尾随着繁忙的生活。。刚才阅读网上报导说有人因压力而选择自尽。。很可惜。。我不会做多余的言论，因每个人有自己的选择权，外人是很难了解的。。很庆幸的是我如今虽然天天面对做不完的 assignment，但我还没有感觉到压力。。

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上个星期三我勉强抽出一个晚上的时间参加中秋晚会。。真的是新人新作风。。场地布置的很好，很有中秋的feel。。。可以感觉得到他们真的很用心筹备这中秋。。还有一群完全不熟悉面孔的工委。。很不错的筹备。。我想他们会觉得奇怪为什么会有几个想我们这样那么sampat又不知天高地厚的人。。我们玩得比工委还疯。。根本把它当做我们自己的活动。。跳舞及游街时比他们还high。。哈哈。。唯一不足的地方就是参与者太少了。。 过后在偶然之下和其中一位筹办者在线上谈起，他觉得很遗憾及失望。。因他觉得活动再好，如没有参与者，一切都归零。。其实，这心情我在很早以前就有过了。。虽会安慰自己和别人说过程比结果重要，只要有人会欣赏我们的活动，就算是一个都好就是成功了。。但在内心深处，总会觉得不值。。花了这么多的心思及努力，换来的只是小猫两三只的参与者，心里一定一定会不好受。。我了解你如今的感受。。我知道他不会看我的部落格，但我会在心里默默的支持他。。因为我了解在学会里打拼总会遇到很多很多的挫折。。在低潮时最需要的是别人的聆听和关怀及一个可以诉苦的对象。。所有学会的战士们，加油吧！！

.: National Day :.

2day is Malaysia national day.. as 1st i plan to go times square shopping as i've waited long time.. but my laziness caused me to wake up late.. so lip suggest to drive to sunway piramid as it already 3pm.. at 1st we plan to eat Genki sushi as it is our favourite.. plus we hav jusco card now.. got extra 10% off.. but to our surprise, d shop had been closed and d actual place is replaced by another sushi outlet.. so we turn to 上海拉面小笼包..

after enter the restaurant, i request to the waitress who serve us that we wish to sit near the window.. the screne outside is nice.. it is sunway logoon..

The environment there is quite unique.. the decoration is with Chinese style.. the waitress oso wearing cheongsam..

冬菇肉饼芙蓉蛋饭 (RM15++) mince pork with egg on fragrants rice..

香菜饭拌黑猪扒 (RM15++) Fried rice with black pepper pork chop..

四川辣子鸡丁 (RM20++) Very crispy and got a bit spicy.. chef recommended..

桂花酒酿汤圆 (RM8++)
it is not like other dessert that is sweet.. it tasted sour as it is made by rice wine.. not quite suitable for me.. i dun like sour soup..

before start his meals.. innocent look**

me* me* me*..

d drinks beside me is called 茅根竹蔗马蹄水(RM5++)

The meal tat day itself cost RM72++.. for me it is not worth it as the food is joz normal except the szechuan chicken.. with the same amount we could have a better food instead.. but nvm la.. lip like it..

Baskin Robin ice cream.. glupp~ glupp~ it is 31st of the month so we had a 31% discount on the ice-cream we bought.. the queue was so long.. wondering y so many ppl love to eat tat ice-cream.. our favourite macadamia is sold out when the time we buy so we choose cookies cream and cappucino ice-cream..

.: 失望 :.

现在的心情-- 有点失落感~~

原本以为我即将会在没有活动与学会的繁忙日子里发呆，发霉之际，无意间得知我有机会参与由世界宣明会所举办的一年一度“饥饿30”活动。。我很期待参与这项即有意义有能间接性帮助有需要的人的生活营。。

日子越靠近，我就越期待。。很开心的与朋友分享。。三天， 两天，一天。。我甚至傻到已想好要带什么样的衣物了。。

怎知。。当我在乐在其中时，接到一通好友的短信告诉我如要参与工委，必须出席早上9时的简报。。我的心情顿时间跌进悬崖谷底。。

.: OSE :.

Orientation Series Events~~ My Events~~ My Buddies~~

This year's OSE we decided only carried out 2 major events as we face time constraints.. we form d committees and starts our journey quite late.. Although we had only worked 2gather for less than 3 months.. our relationship with each other is oso not as good as other events, but i really appreciate and value each of them.. when d committees is joz formed, i feel myself very "old" as i'm d eldest among them all.. i afraid we hav gap.. but fortunately tat we can mix 2gather happily.. our 1st outing was sing k and movie.. at 1st we decided 2 go cameron as most of us haven't been there b4.. but due to some ciscumstances, we change it 2 sing k.. d trip was so memorable..

campers n all of us having lots fun in Orientation Camp.. it is really a successful camp.. this is definately not d 1st time i joined a camp.. d exciting feeling of joining a camp is no more exist but d friendship is valued.. i can feel d hardwork of d camp comm as i'm oso a part of them.. thx for Edward's hardwork n determinations.. without his determinations, we will not hav such a memorable camp.. he does not giv up when he face probs during planning period.. he does not giv up when d campers is not up 2 target.. i can feel tat he puts lots of his time in d preparations..

thx 2 orientation night's working comm who starts their workshop 3 weeks b4 d events.. the deco really makes me "wow".. i hav never seen a such nice stage backdrop, nice deco around d hall in MMU.. they really puts lots of effort in doing this.. every nite they strive hard until 4am.. during critical moments, every1 will face with probs.. but Hai really a good person tat i ever met.. he never scolded ppl although he is d a bad mood.. he always will smile 2 me whenever meets me no matter how stress he is.. thx Hai for all d hardwork.. jia you ya in 12th CNYE~~

joz found out this pics and really makes me feel tat times really flies very fast.. opening booth for wc recruitment is joz like things happened yesterday.. i can c johnny really puts much of his efforts in OSE.. although sometimes he does not do wat he is supposed 2 do but he really work hard 2 correct everything 2 fulfil every1.. sometimes i really appreciate his determination in staying in OSE as a part of us when having probs.. he really a pessimistics person.. he never blame any1 or anything..

cheng and qi wen is my best ever team mates.. we always stick 2gather whenever we meets.. n this make us hav a cute "team name" - G club (gossiping).. we can talk and talk so much as if we had know each others very very long.. sometimes i'll hav different point of view and opinion with cheng tat makes us quarrel.. but d most funny things is we end up gossiping in stead of quarrel.. 3 of us always share our happiness and solve probs 2gather.. really feel comfortable to stick with both of u.. we seems hav lots of unfinish topics to gossip 2gather...

jian wei and sue ern is d person i spent d less time with.. they really giv out their full heart in doing this events.. jian wei is a nice person tat wont reject any request from any ppl.. he will do whatever he can without any words.. feel very comfortable 2 befren with him.. me n sue ern had misunderstanding but it had been a past n i know it will not affect our friendship in future..

now our tenure comes 2 an end and each of us will start our diff tenure and journey.. but memories is still remain on my heart.. looking forward 2 our appreciation dinner.. *blink*

.: TAO CUISINE :.

Tao Cuisine All-You-Can-Eat Japanese Buffet 是位于Autocity的一间自助餐餐厅。。 在槟岛也有一间分店。。很想和立良一起去吃日式自助餐很 久了。。也 对 TAO CUISINE虎视眈眈了有一段时间，因哥哥曾说过那里的食物很不错，朋友也极力推荐。。 我偷偷上网搜寻了许多资料，很多人都对那间料理赞不绝口，TAO 的网页上的介绍也很吸引人。。

终于机会来了。。

2008年5月27日。.

我们打听说是下午5。30开始营业, 为了避免碰钉子(因我们没预定位子)，我们七早八早就盛装打扮好，5时正就出发。一到达门口，我们就很兴奋的拿着立良送我的21岁生日礼物(照相机)开始拍照起来。。

main door

start ordering food lo~

Sampat look =P

SS while waiting for d food to be served
1st round.. Appetisers.. abalone~ Scallop~ Toriyaki~ Chawanmushi~~

Sushi~~ Sushi~ Sushi~~

Main course.. curry lamb~~ 3 cup chicken~~ fried mantis shrimp~ teriyaki dolly fish~~

Salmon fish~~ squid~~ deep fried fish~~ wantan~~

Grilled lamb~~ seafood yaki~~ korrokke~~

Lastly, desserts~~ we ate 4 cups of green tea ice-cream.. yummy~~

Whole table of food is waiting for us lo~~

We oso do not forget to capture some pics before going bac~~

这一餐吃得虽然皮包有一点点的“伤”，但总算是开心又满足的一晚。。 我们两的肚皮就快被撑暴咯~~