.: a lil Happy Thingy :.

woOoOoOo hoOoOoO~~!!!!

cameron trip pics + updates will up soon...



n off course updates on d end of my STUDENT's life~~!! owwhhhh.... so sad... n regret for not fully utilize n enjoy during d 4 years U life... gonna miss d moments d most....

.: life in PBB :.

This was d 1st post i write after 9 months of busy working life in PBB... actually i'm not tat busy until cant squeeze out few minutes to update... it's becoz of my laziness n sluggishness... always giv myself excuses tat i'm too tired after work n need some rest n relax n need some time for my ownself after a long day of work...

Refresh back these 9 months of struggle life in PBB... it's not easy to be a working lady after all... i had to face a lot a lot of matters all by myself... within these period, i really learned a lot... to strive for confirmation in service, i dare not take a single MC nor annual leave...everyday went to work with the hope of SALES...

The target for me in a A1 size branch is killing me... RM5.6 millions 1 year... for the first few months was a total nightmare to me... never feel so stress b4... it's a mentally stress tat torture me for months... merely every night i hav d same scope of dreams came into brains... no1 will definately understand how stress i am to hope for sales during d days n dreamt of having sales during nite time... having nitemare every single nite makes me frustrated n hopeless...

Apart from d superb high sales figures tat had to be achieved, i do unhappy with lots of personnel matters... those tat i help them d most EVERYDAY treat me like i'm their maid... order me to do this n tat as they wish... never ever appreciate wat we had help them but love to say something bad on us-sales staffs... telling customers tat we earn RM2.8k(much higher pay than them) but so free walking here n there... OMG... we r earning money for the company k? wat had u done in helping the company to earn money? we had our own target to achieve despite our high paid salary... btw, ask us to help them but love to blame this n tat after tat... know they r envy on our high paid salary coz we r fresh grads but they edy worked for years... but i edy used to their working style so it's ok for me now... :)

As a sales staff who earned RM2.8k per month, we r graded as senior officer, a grade tat is higher than a clerk, customer service, normal officer... however, our power n autorities is totally not tally with our grade... even clerk oso will show us black faces n show temper to us... wat to do? we need them to REFER n do the TRANSACTIONS for us after we closed sales....


Let's talk about d ppl tat most close to me... my sales team... My OIC never ever help me like wat she does to my PFE seniors... according to most of my colleagues, she brings him to meet big customers, parked all her sales under him in order to help him to confirm in service... every1 told me they r couples but at 1st i do not believe coz tat time i quite close to them... after sometimes, i start to realize y she does not help me... coz becoz of me his beloved has to compete with me... before i came, d staff refer cases to him but things change after i entered... most of d sales staff refer to me instead of him... come on... it's joz becoz they wish to help me to confirm... i do help them a lot... never help me is ok for me... i strive myself for my figure... accumulate little by little... but y u need to step on me n bully me? take away my customers once after once... ask me to go to customer service when she serve a customer whereas tat was my customer!! dun believe d customer was my customer after my BSE passed a case to me... plz be fair to me... i'm oso one of ur subordinates...

1st thing she taught me on my 1st day early in d morning was:"we, as a sales staff, must be PROFESSIONAL, cant tackle others' customer". d words r as if i would do tat... plz do judge me b4 knowing me... another words tat make me stunned was "u're unlike Lean, he is good in tackle big customers, but u r more to collect sales little by little.." this was wat she told me during her 1st time bring me out to meet customer... tat day lean was on leave but she msg him to come hav dinner with d customers joz to intro to him.. treat me as if i'm not there... however, i'll not hate her but will treat her well n respect her as my superior...

Thank God all the unhappy time had passed... i'm contented with my works n my colleagues as i had used to their working lifestyle... i think more openly after so long of working 2gather with them... but i still cant act as normal me... still hav d wall between me n my colleagues... but i feel not so uneasy to be in d bank dy as i newly joined.... started to in love with this working environment... love to communicate with customers, love my close colleagues, but still, i'm not able to love my job scope... deep in my heart i do wish i can remain as banker but not in sales line... but it's definately will be remain as a wish...

It's time~~

It's been years since i last updated my blog... i knew no1 reading it but it's a way for me to jot down my little memories... I left MMU n started my 1st ever job in Por n Ooi... it was terribly n extremely busy job for an intern... non of my frens is as busy as me as an intern... but i do appreciates the trust given on me to complete the tax return together with other staffs...

Although i'm joz an intern but the job my assistant manager gav to me is ntg more easier job... on top of those busy days, i grateful tat i could learn so so so much tat makes me appreciates wat i hav learn... the tax areas is so huge tat dig my interest to find out more n more during my 4-month-internship...

although i'm not tat satisfy with the management in tat small audit firm, but overall i'm quite happy during the period... i hav a bunch of frens tat can shares jokes n laughters together everyday... we even will come out for gathering on weekends... i feel quite comfortable to stay along with them as our "channel" is almost the same... we hav same thoughts n topics of conversations...

they offered me a vacancy there after my intern but due to the low salary paid, i turned down the offered... to me, i feel tat my degree that i struggle so many years does not only worth a mere RM1.3k... futher more, the company is quite small n the benefits given is not tat good... moreover, working in an audit firm is definately not my choice...

when it comes to the last month of my internship, i receive call from Public Bank tat they offered me the position of Personal Financial Executive with a basic pay of RM2.8k... n the branch the offered to is is so near to my house... working in a bank is always my dream n my hope when i decided to take up Financial Engineering courses... i should hav very happy but the job scope of the position is SALES... the word tat i'm always say NO to...

in the mist of deciding whether to take up Public bank as a sales personnel or continue to work in P&O, i receives calls from Hwang DBS... i went for the interview without any preparations... the 1st session is writing eassay on the recent economic... 2nd is interviewed by 2 person with all those questions mostly on wat i had learn in the lecture b4.. but i hav totally forgotten bout it dy... the last interview is by the finance manager... i get shots n lots of negatives comments from the managers... i gav myself a D for the interview session n lost hope on it... but to my surprise they offer me the job of finance executive with the starting pay of RM2k...

i decided to go for Hwang as the job scope is very ideal to a Financial Engineers like me... but lots of barriers restraints me from choosing the job n forced me to choose Public Bank... the next posts will be my days in Public Bank...

.: recent chaos :.

"Someone you work with is claiming to be working hard to get things done, but have you seen any real progress from them? If not, then your patience is probably running low -- and you need to let them know that you're not very happy. It's not wise to get threatening about it, but you should feel free to be more blunt than diplomatic when you talk to them about what they need to get done. Clear communication sometimes requires that you leave the charm behind. "

horoscope~~!! horoscope~~!! horoscope~~!! suddenly log in friendster n click on d horoscope... n saw this... aiksss....

为什么？

为什么身为leader 的我需要帮别人善后？
为什么我得委屈的向别人说道歉？
为什么我得低声下气的向别人说话？
为什么我得承受别人的冤骂，而祸却不是我闯的？
为什么没有人理解我为何要做每个决定？


一个领袖的职责是这样的吗？
谁能告诉我如何解决一切问题？
下属自以为是，不听劝告，越帮越反效果，反而让别人更不愉快。。我能怎么办？
有人说须多多提点没经验的人，让他们进步；
有人说须放开手让他们自己闯。。
我选择了前者，
因很多很多不同的意见要我不得不选。。
做了选择，
又有人告诉我说不该如此。。
我又何妨不想让他们去闯一闯，
自己站在该站的位子，观察整体。。
但，我能吗？我有得选吗？
我很矛盾，很矛盾。。。



当我发现事情不妙时，立刻当机立断接手所有一切。。
换来的，是感激吗？是成果吗？是完美吗？
不！！
是责备。。



我累了。。 真的累了。。 我该放手吗？
放手让我不甘心。。
我不愿我的结晶品是如此的差。。
我要求太高吗？
我不切实际吗？



谁能告诉我？谁能了解我？谁愿意帮我？
希望明天会更好。。
希望。。。希望。。。希望。。。



我可以许愿吗？
会实现吗？