.: The End of Hell and Welcome to Heaven :.

As in my title, god blessed that at last I had made a brilliant and happy-ending decision to quit from IBM... my hectic life that makes me exhausted finally ends. I do not have to wake up early just to catch an early bus to work, travel nearly 2 hrs in bus, OT till midnight, wait for bus after dragging my tired body home, travel again in bus which I hate d most. It's really annoying sitting in a bus doing nothing for 3 hrs a day. It's just a waste of time spending about 5 out of 24 hrs a day for waiting for a bus and stuck in traffic jam.


I am NOT regret leaving IBM. Just feel that i need to leave this so-called HELL as soon as possible. The benefits and salary plus the title offered by IBM makes me feel that I am not valued and I do not deserve this type of treatment(negative ones). I definitely deserve a better ones. Personally and deep in my heart, I feel that I deserved a better and appreciative company and boss as I am not that bad actually.


First of all, the job scope offered is definitely not my preference, doing or better described as KEY IN contracts details is nothing related to FINANCE. I do not want to waste my 4 years of degree and come out entering into a career that totally not related. Secondly, they offered me contract staff with low starting salary(compare to others)... and lower grades as well.. mean i can claim OT.. normal executives cannot claim. Not to say the benefits given to contract staffs is such a ridiculous bad for a Big MNC company like this...


Okay, lets not to talk about IBM more as it had been a past tense for me and during my tenure there, I really experienced a lot. Work outside own comfort territory, far from family, travel in KL, office dull work(nothing much to learn), office politics, counting on $$ left everyday(heavy expenses) and so on.. It's really a physical and mentally torture to me for the pathetic 2-months..


Luckily I am lucky enough to be chosen to be one of the Graduate Credit Trainee in Maybank.. at first I thought of I am been disqualified as they called me when I am in HK and not able to pick up their calls.. but fortunately at last they called again. Thanks god I am been given the chance. I jump up triumphantly after received their calls. I even dig out my savings to payback IBM for the early terminations to join Maybank.


On 21st of November( **a day to remark), I packed all my stuffs to move to Maybank Learning Centres with joy. But during my 1st meet up with HR together with other 23 GCTs, I have the "Oh my Goodness" feeling deep in my heart. How come everyone seems to know each other and they sit together except me? And they is just 3 chinese girls in the group? How am I going to survive with majority are Malays? However, I still brought out all my courage to walk to them and started to talk to them. The GCT programme starts with 3 weeks classroom training followed by 3 weeks branch attachments, another one month intensive credit classroom training before end our programme with 3 weeks Business Centres attachments and 2 weeks Trade Finance Centres attachment.


During the first week, I was trying to be close to my Malay friends. And I found out that they are quite easy going and we became best friends easily. We were asked to move to Marriott Putrajaya in the second week as there will be Maybank games going on. I was again blissful and delighted as it's a 5-stars hotel. We will going to be stay there for 9 days. We stayed there, have meals there and our classes also there. I was so glad to be arranged alone as I'm the last person in the list ad there are 25 of us. I really enjoyed my time there with my friends. Our relationship became closer as we spent most of out time together in the hotel.


*** I will reveal more on the happiest working tenure in my life during GCT training programme...

.: N3w LiF3 :.

It's been very tough to make this decision... was so in dilemma during d few weeks of transition period... was born to very indecisive dy still hav 2 make this hard decision is like making fool of me... i cried silently when i depart from my house...had been almost 1 year staying peacefully n happily at home sweet home and totally used to d life of being pampered princess...




started d job with not confirm feeling during my 1st day... during orientation i still consider do i wanna sign d form or joz left... but oso sign it at last....




get my thinkpad on 2nd day of work and started to report to my manager... get to know that i do not have my own personal workstation as my teammates r all been busy with quarter-end closing... has been in honeymoon mood for bout 1 month... some days will hav education sessions with seniors teaching me on d process... during days tat dun hav education n seeing others been so busy but cant help anything is quite bad... wish to browse into the internet but scare others saw... joz go 2 office n day dreaming then lunch then wait for 5.30pm to arrive...




not forget to mention on how i travel everyday to work... i woke up at 5.30am on my 1st day and take 6.30am 's bus to work... reach office at 8am sharp... was so tired during d 1st day orientation sessions... joz feel to give up on this work at tat time... i wait for almost 45 mins everyday for bus after my work.... jam for bout 1 hour 45 mins to reach putra n reach home at bout 9pm everyday... was mentally n physically exhausted... bad devil in my brain persuade me to give up everyday... was thinking bout it as well.... really cant stand to it...

luckily this kind of situation last no longer as Jason, one of my best friend in Uni called me up 1 week after i work n offer me for a lift... was so happy to know tat i can car pool his car to work everyday... i still need to spend 1 and a half hour in d traffic everyday to n fro but i am contented bout it... at least i can save up my energy on waiting for bus tat only god knows d time it arrive....
now i can reach home by 7pm if i push off from my office at 5.30pm sharp...




oh yea... d hectic life caused me to gain scary weight... normally ppl will only slim down on hectic life but y i gain weight instead? it is becoz i had my dinner after arrive in sk everyday bout 9pm and go to bed after tat... it makes me grew fat a lot... realize it too late n now need to start to control on my consumption of food everyday... one is becoz of i'm fat n ugly n other things is becoz i need to save, save n save money... was so DRY after i quit my previous job... used up all my available savings on food, bus fare to KL for interviews n flight tickets to HK....




GOING TO HK SOON LO.... HUHUHU~~~~

.: a lil Happy Thingy :.

woOoOoOo hoOoOoO~~!!!!

cameron trip pics + updates will up soon...



n off course updates on d end of my STUDENT's life~~!! owwhhhh.... so sad... n regret for not fully utilize n enjoy during d 4 years U life... gonna miss d moments d most....

.: life in PBB :.

This was d 1st post i write after 9 months of busy working life in PBB... actually i'm not tat busy until cant squeeze out few minutes to update... it's becoz of my laziness n sluggishness... always giv myself excuses tat i'm too tired after work n need some rest n relax n need some time for my ownself after a long day of work...

Refresh back these 9 months of struggle life in PBB... it's not easy to be a working lady after all... i had to face a lot a lot of matters all by myself... within these period, i really learned a lot... to strive for confirmation in service, i dare not take a single MC nor annual leave...everyday went to work with the hope of SALES...

The target for me in a A1 size branch is killing me... RM5.6 millions 1 year... for the first few months was a total nightmare to me... never feel so stress b4... it's a mentally stress tat torture me for months... merely every night i hav d same scope of dreams came into brains... no1 will definately understand how stress i am to hope for sales during d days n dreamt of having sales during nite time... having nitemare every single nite makes me frustrated n hopeless...

Apart from d superb high sales figures tat had to be achieved, i do unhappy with lots of personnel matters... those tat i help them d most EVERYDAY treat me like i'm their maid... order me to do this n tat as they wish... never ever appreciate wat we had help them but love to say something bad on us-sales staffs... telling customers tat we earn RM2.8k(much higher pay than them) but so free walking here n there... OMG... we r earning money for the company k? wat had u done in helping the company to earn money? we had our own target to achieve despite our high paid salary... btw, ask us to help them but love to blame this n tat after tat... know they r envy on our high paid salary coz we r fresh grads but they edy worked for years... but i edy used to their working style so it's ok for me now... :)

As a sales staff who earned RM2.8k per month, we r graded as senior officer, a grade tat is higher than a clerk, customer service, normal officer... however, our power n autorities is totally not tally with our grade... even clerk oso will show us black faces n show temper to us... wat to do? we need them to REFER n do the TRANSACTIONS for us after we closed sales....


Let's talk about d ppl tat most close to me... my sales team... My OIC never ever help me like wat she does to my PFE seniors... according to most of my colleagues, she brings him to meet big customers, parked all her sales under him in order to help him to confirm in service... every1 told me they r couples but at 1st i do not believe coz tat time i quite close to them... after sometimes, i start to realize y she does not help me... coz becoz of me his beloved has to compete with me... before i came, d staff refer cases to him but things change after i entered... most of d sales staff refer to me instead of him... come on... it's joz becoz they wish to help me to confirm... i do help them a lot... never help me is ok for me... i strive myself for my figure... accumulate little by little... but y u need to step on me n bully me? take away my customers once after once... ask me to go to customer service when she serve a customer whereas tat was my customer!! dun believe d customer was my customer after my BSE passed a case to me... plz be fair to me... i'm oso one of ur subordinates...

1st thing she taught me on my 1st day early in d morning was:"we, as a sales staff, must be PROFESSIONAL, cant tackle others' customer". d words r as if i would do tat... plz do judge me b4 knowing me... another words tat make me stunned was "u're unlike Lean, he is good in tackle big customers, but u r more to collect sales little by little.." this was wat she told me during her 1st time bring me out to meet customer... tat day lean was on leave but she msg him to come hav dinner with d customers joz to intro to him.. treat me as if i'm not there... however, i'll not hate her but will treat her well n respect her as my superior...

Thank God all the unhappy time had passed... i'm contented with my works n my colleagues as i had used to their working lifestyle... i think more openly after so long of working 2gather with them... but i still cant act as normal me... still hav d wall between me n my colleagues... but i feel not so uneasy to be in d bank dy as i newly joined.... started to in love with this working environment... love to communicate with customers, love my close colleagues, but still, i'm not able to love my job scope... deep in my heart i do wish i can remain as banker but not in sales line... but it's definately will be remain as a wish...

It's time~~

It's been years since i last updated my blog... i knew no1 reading it but it's a way for me to jot down my little memories... I left MMU n started my 1st ever job in Por n Ooi... it was terribly n extremely busy job for an intern... non of my frens is as busy as me as an intern... but i do appreciates the trust given on me to complete the tax return together with other staffs...

Although i'm joz an intern but the job my assistant manager gav to me is ntg more easier job... on top of those busy days, i grateful tat i could learn so so so much tat makes me appreciates wat i hav learn... the tax areas is so huge tat dig my interest to find out more n more during my 4-month-internship...

although i'm not tat satisfy with the management in tat small audit firm, but overall i'm quite happy during the period... i hav a bunch of frens tat can shares jokes n laughters together everyday... we even will come out for gathering on weekends... i feel quite comfortable to stay along with them as our "channel" is almost the same... we hav same thoughts n topics of conversations...

they offered me a vacancy there after my intern but due to the low salary paid, i turned down the offered... to me, i feel tat my degree that i struggle so many years does not only worth a mere RM1.3k... futher more, the company is quite small n the benefits given is not tat good... moreover, working in an audit firm is definately not my choice...

when it comes to the last month of my internship, i receive call from Public Bank tat they offered me the position of Personal Financial Executive with a basic pay of RM2.8k... n the branch the offered to is is so near to my house... working in a bank is always my dream n my hope when i decided to take up Financial Engineering courses... i should hav very happy but the job scope of the position is SALES... the word tat i'm always say NO to...

in the mist of deciding whether to take up Public bank as a sales personnel or continue to work in P&O, i receives calls from Hwang DBS... i went for the interview without any preparations... the 1st session is writing eassay on the recent economic... 2nd is interviewed by 2 person with all those questions mostly on wat i had learn in the lecture b4.. but i hav totally forgotten bout it dy... the last interview is by the finance manager... i get shots n lots of negatives comments from the managers... i gav myself a D for the interview session n lost hope on it... but to my surprise they offer me the job of finance executive with the starting pay of RM2k...

i decided to go for Hwang as the job scope is very ideal to a Financial Engineers like me... but lots of barriers restraints me from choosing the job n forced me to choose Public Bank... the next posts will be my days in Public Bank...

.: recent chaos :.

"Someone you work with is claiming to be working hard to get things done, but have you seen any real progress from them? If not, then your patience is probably running low -- and you need to let them know that you're not very happy. It's not wise to get threatening about it, but you should feel free to be more blunt than diplomatic when you talk to them about what they need to get done. Clear communication sometimes requires that you leave the charm behind. "

horoscope~~!! horoscope~~!! horoscope~~!! suddenly log in friendster n click on d horoscope... n saw this... aiksss....

为什么？

为什么身为leader 的我需要帮别人善后？
为什么我得委屈的向别人说道歉？
为什么我得低声下气的向别人说话？
为什么我得承受别人的冤骂，而祸却不是我闯的？
为什么没有人理解我为何要做每个决定？


一个领袖的职责是这样的吗？
谁能告诉我如何解决一切问题？
下属自以为是，不听劝告，越帮越反效果，反而让别人更不愉快。。我能怎么办？
有人说须多多提点没经验的人，让他们进步；
有人说须放开手让他们自己闯。。
我选择了前者，
因很多很多不同的意见要我不得不选。。
做了选择，
又有人告诉我说不该如此。。
我又何妨不想让他们去闯一闯，
自己站在该站的位子，观察整体。。
但，我能吗？我有得选吗？
我很矛盾，很矛盾。。。



当我发现事情不妙时，立刻当机立断接手所有一切。。
换来的，是感激吗？是成果吗？是完美吗？
不！！
是责备。。



我累了。。 真的累了。。 我该放手吗？
放手让我不甘心。。
我不愿我的结晶品是如此的差。。
我要求太高吗？
我不切实际吗？



谁能告诉我？谁能了解我？谁愿意帮我？
希望明天会更好。。
希望。。。希望。。。希望。。。



我可以许愿吗？
会实现吗？

我。。累了吗？

很多时候，我总喜欢选择逃避现实，逃避责任，逃避不想见的人，逃避在面前紧急须处理的事情。。我知道我错了，但我的勇气始终鼓不出来。。我很懦弱，我很胆小，我很瞧不起我自己。。我怕面对事情，面对尴尬，面对为难。。这一切一切，我都很清楚。。



我又能做什么呢？我常告诉我自己，路是我自己选择的，我选择走这条路，就不该后悔。。每一条路都有自己的终点。。我既然选择了，就须努力，坚强的走到最后。。放弃，在我人生的字典里并不存在。。至少我重来都没有做过。。我没勇气面对，但我重来都不放弃。。我会努力想办法改善。。这是我最值得骄傲的地方。。虽然结果很差，很不理想，很不堪设想，但我总抱着“我努力换来的成果不论在别人眼里有多差，但在我心目中是最好的，至少我有从中学习到东西。。” 我不会伟大的要求过程，要求结果，只是要求大家有进步，有吸取经验，有成长就好了。。



每个人在不同的领域，不同的环境，不同的局限都须有着不同的解决方案，不同的面对方式，唯一不可不同的是想达到目标的心。。一个人坚强的心是最重要的。。在多恶劣的环境都能屹立不倒。。我自认我还没有那么大的本事，我还须学习，磨炼。。所以我常常在累的时候停顿下来，或大哭一场，又或者是和别人诉诉苦。。可是当中也让我学习了不少。

.: BAD ME :.

Are you losing your patience with someone? If it seems like they can't listen to reason, they may have made up their mind already. Maybe they refuse to see any alternatives. If you feel like you've hit a brick wall, then step back and stop hitting your head against it! Learn when enough is enough. If you can't deal with someone, you need to just work around them (or avoid them altogether). Some people just don't know how to work with others, and that is not your problem.

aiksss.... another friendster horoscopes.... this matter really bothers me... so bad tat i had 1 bad day of cny.... feel regret bout it... but luckily some1 had scolded me badly tat makes me feel tat i'm really locking myself all these while... this probs hunts me for long long time... i think it had been quite a couple of years since tat incident... me myself also realize bout it but i never wanna come out from d box.... tat makes my situation even worst...

sometimes i joz know i'll drop to even deeper if i din't try to climb up but i do not hav d courage n determinations to take d first step... not i refuse to, but i scare to be hurt another time... i cant bear d painful in my heart... i'm too soft... tat's y i'm been over-protective of myself... i'll try to oppose everything tat does not suits to me... i'll find all kinds of excuses to protect myself... all becoz of i had been hurt too deep.. but after tat day, i knew i need to... i must CHANGE!! i'm glad tat some1 who cares me, strict to me, point out my mistake loudly... let me wake up from d silly own world...


i'll giv myself a timeline to correct from it... it must not too rush as things will goes upside down when it is over... but in contrast, d time oso must not be too long as i know myself well... i'll drag n lazy to correct it if it is still a long way down d road...

1 MONTHS.... to hav a different shindee.... at least frens around can feel a little difference of it....

6 MONTHS.... back to normal people's life....(not tat i'm abnormal now, but only me will know wat does this mean)... will be walking into the working life with a different characteristics.....

***wishing*** my only hope for 2009 chinese new year...

.: Special Presentzz :.

2day suddenly hav mood 2 update my blog... 2day is d 1st day of exam... this is d 1st time i not stress n study overnight for a paper... i never been so relax b4 for a paper... at least for finals... d feelings id joz like i'm taking mid term paper... frenz around me oso told me tat it seems very easy for this sem's paper... ya~~ i admit i do feel like tat... but when glance through d pass year paper, i promptly panic...


aikss~~!! duwan talk bout d final anymore...


talk bout something happie here~~some present tat makes me happie~~



05/01/2009

Ta Dang~~!! a brand new pencil case.... lip gav me this b4 i went in 2 d exam hall... quite touching at d moment... he is so attentive n caring... he knew my pencil case spoil dy... i not willing to buy another new 1... so he purposely prepare a new 1 4 me...
when i asked him when he bought it, he said quite long time dy... bout last sem...

then i ask "y now only giv it to me??"

he replied "u say u duwan change a new pencil case yet if ur pencil case still can be use... if i giv it 2 u then will be get scolded..."

***** although it looks so "man" using this pencil case, but i appreciate d heart n d intentions...

12/04/2008

ahah~~ this 1 is extremely touching when received it... a digital camera... wow... d birthday gift was so expensive~!! he purposely organized a birthday party 4 me... n make it like a lucky draw for me to choose my present... among them was: go 2 genting, a kiss, digital camera, RM 100 cash, n some others... i had 3 chances to choose for my presents... but it is a trick... there is another box tat keep all those paper written digital cameras...

can c those words?? it is amazing...we joz passby a camera shop during a midnite movie since d movie still hav some time 2 go... d shop had closed... we joz simply look into d window cabinet tat display many camera... he remembered all my words...

10/11/2008

d cute dolls.... ahahaha... he is quite "noob" in choosing soft toys... hehe... he dunno tat gals like bears or something soft... d dolls he bought usually quite large n hard to hug during nite time... so i not used to hug those dollss... once i complained to him tat wat i wanna is dolls tat can be hug... bear is better... but need big... this is d 1 he bought 4 me... 4giv him as he really dunno wat gals wants... but it is touched my heart tat he actually take my words seriously...

25/12/2007
d christmas present~~!! i wish to hav a couple watch for so long... n tat time he does not hav any of it... when i came bac from china, he edy bought this... it's POLO couple watch... happy happy happy...

14/02/2006

Patrick a.k.a RED DOG... it's very large... i think is d largest 1 among those set... he gav it 2 me becoz of a pretty misunderstanding... still remember tat time was 10th cnye Recreational Nite... i'm holding a small patrick n then he saw it... he thought i like patrick so he bought it 4 me a few days later...

.: Frenz :.

It's important to pursue your dreams today. What you want in life isn't just going to be handed to you. You need to figure out a plan of action -- and luckily your brain is sharp enough today to help you sift through all the noise and see what can be done. You've been in a fog about someone for a while, and a conversation with a mutual friend will illuminate some facts you were previously unaware of. Your long-held opinion about them is about to change.

another horoscopes forecast from friendster.... it is totally true of wat it says... i really gonna change my opinion on him.... he is not tat person whom i tell my inner heart anymore... he is no more d person i thought of who he is.... he change 2 another person tat i feel far away from... he change his words n even say stg ridiculous.... i feel i'm so STUPID, NOOB to decide to help him... he never appreciate wat had been done but throw all his responsibility to us.... once i thought he is a good leader... but at least for 2day, nope!! he is not~~!!

never really understand from my stand n start to doubt wat i'm doing... not to admit his mistake on choosing d wrong person n start to blame me not trusting others.... so disappointed with him... i cant think of y... i value him as fren, but to him, he joz value us as person to help him.... n he act like we SHOULD help him...

.: New 09 Year :.

1st day of 2009~~!! A brand new year with full of fancy hopes, extraordinary aspirations, wild dreams.... Actually personally i do not feel d new year atmosphere... never thought of wat to do in the comin years.... at a moment, i do think of "wat if i do not hav chance to welcome another year with open handed?" "wat important things had happened in 2008 tat worth for me to keep in my "limited space" of memory?"

despite all of those silly thoughts n feelings, i still gonna list down my wishes n hopes for the comin year... i hope when i flash back wat had i done in the year 2009 then, i'll hav stg in mind tat is important n meaningful....

here comes d lists of my resolutions:

(i) determinations on keep fit... my target--> less than 50 kg.... only 3kg to lose is like killing me... no1 knows how envy i am to ppl who hav perfect body line..... no1 knows how hurt n sad am i when ppl tease me "fatty"....

--> hav a healthy diet... eat breakfast... normal lunch n less on dinner.... a little exercise as i never love exercise.... .

(ii) treasure my family more.... i wanna be more obedient and love my family members more... they are my loves one forever....wanna giv all my best to my beloved parents

--> love them... love them... love them~~!! actions greater than words...

(iii) hav a good intern followed by a good company for me to continue my career.... every1 out there is discussing about d recession and economy downturn next year... deep in my heart quite worry about my future as dunno how long ago i had been hoping to come out for work....

--> brush up my communication skills as INTERVIEW is d most scary n killing things 4 me....

(iv) can hav more general knowledge..... i'm so admire ppl who knows everything on earth.... i hope i can be as knowledgable as them...

-->it is not hard to achieve this target if i equipped myself with determinations and hard work...1st of all.. to achieve it, i must work hard on research and read newspaper~!!

(v) hav a good relationship and social intercourse.... i does not want to regret on any friendship or relationship anymore... it really hunts me...

--> pay more attention on wat should n should not say.... no more childish thinking n act...

(vi) study abroad?? this is still a question mark 4 me... i'm tired in studies n all those assignments n exams.... but if hav chance for me to continue study (fully sponsored), i'm going to try on it... besides, nowadays, degree holders in not precious anymore....

--> study hard for d last 2 sem.... try hard to apply JPA for extension to study abroad... this is my dream..... my childhood dream... my teenage dream.... n my young adulthood dream... in a hut shell, it is my whole life dream...

tat's all for now.... will keep on updating my wishes to improve myself....

.: Hints? :.

"Talking is always good, but doing is much better today! This is a great time for taking action -- signing documents, starting projects, and making your big romantic move. Open your mind to the idea that you are ready to go. Stop waiting for someone else to take you by the hand and tell you it's time -- it is not going to happen. You have been procrastinating too long. You need to just start putting things in motion and all of your confidence will come later."

This is wat my horoscopes (Aries) from friendster said 2day... i always very believe in it as to me it is quite true sometimes.. Is it giv me any hint or implications tat i need to make my decisions dy? i had really procrastinate my time too long dy on this stuff...

Many questions had pop up in my mind since i decided to took up this event... but the more i care about it, the more anxiety appear in my mind... i had no confidence to make it a success? or i scare to work in a team which i'm not confident with? or i scare how others look at me? or i'm afraid to be a leader again? or worry i cant tackle with my FYP? or i still cant put down d things? or i anxious not enough time to run an event?

when i 1st decided to contribute to my society, i think of many ways to make it a success... i reallly do wish it will has a great achievement and acomplishment... at least d problem facing by the society now will be settled after my event.... i really appreciate and love this society very much... sometimes i will ask myself y so many seniors do not hav d heart in it? y they like to spread rumours or bad words bout this society? y even the members or cadre of the society oso act like tat... it is really heart broken when i saw or hear it.....

come back to the point.... do i really need to make my decisions and make up my mind now? izzit like how he said, there is no1 other than me more suitable dy? am i trying to evade anything? or i need some care n concern? all i wanna is joz a person to encourage me to move forward... a person to back me up when i'm nervous... a person to tell me i'm capable... a person to trust me tat i can make it... tat's all i wanna... but is it tat hard?

i believe every1 will only look at 1 sided... wont change their perspective to look at d other side tat y i'm tat hard to make d decision... y i always wanna evade... hope tat really will hav this person appears in my life to help me....

.: Life :.

Behind every success is AMBITION

Behind every ambition is EFFORT

Behind every effort is some1 who is WILLING TO TRY~~!!!

.: Shopping Spree :.

say NO to YES (Year End Sales)....

i think every young folks oso hav this kind of thinking when it comes to d tempting sales all around... shopping is definately activities to every1 at this particular period since christmas and CNY is approaching...

i enjoy d feelings of shopping around with frenz... not "shopping" actually... is kinda gathering.. freed our minds after a week of hectic lectures and tutorial... watch movie... snap pics around... having lunch.... jokings.... looking for pretty gals 2gather.... it's really FUN~~!!

1st Outing

Date: 14/11/2008

Time: 10.30am - 10.30pm

Destinations: Times Square

Transport: 429 -> E1 -> monorial -> times square-> monorial -> LRT -> ERL -> 429

Participants: THE FOUR (a name after a tvb drama, quite nice story)

zyin a.k.a PS, the beer lover.... haha.... it's green tea la.... KF a.k.a BEAR, the food capturer.... look~~ he is so excited capturing d food with his "NEW" camera phone... he always has a baby face...LL a.k.a PLUTO, blur but natural look... d short hair he has... every1 says it is too short but to me it is nice and neat...

SD a.k.a HIPPO, introducing d fried udon.... not delicious + quite expensive... dun try it~~!!

me n ps plan to celebrate kf's belated bday as kf does not comes to penang as planned earlier during his bday.... we went for a movie (James Bond - Quantum of Solace).... to me, d movie is not tat attractive... i hav an aversion against action movie... moreover, i dun quite understand d story line from d beginning till d end... d characters in d movie oso not tat charming and good-looking...

***addition: we were bothered by some Maybank Salesman which tell us some grandmother stories on Takaful... he is quite polite n handsome.... haha... tat's y we were attracted to him n listen to him for almost 1 hour.... he is also quite persuasive as all of us almost fall into his trap... but at last we disappoint him as we r RATIONAL thinkers... haha...

d gals.... d beauties of d day~~

d guys.... d beasts of d day~~ man in black.....

four of us... with d "beers"... look at my sampat look, ps's sexy leg, kf funny small eyes n Lip's fake smile... good combinations....

us... in ERL... with d small bday cake.... can u c d eye catching strawberry?? guess wat.... it smells good... but according to kf, it is not tat tasty... wat la him... still complaining wo...

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2nd Outing

Date: 06/12/2008

Time: 11.00am - 9.30pm

Destinations: 1 Utama

Transport: 429 -> U43 -> 1U -> U43 -> 429

Participants:

LL, cowboy or personal guard??? fyi, he is wearing new shirts, new jeans n new sport shoes tat day.... n of course d so called "lala" sunglasses is not belongs to him...

Sam, the BLIND man... he loves to act cool when taking pics.... but COOL does not suit to his characteristics... he loves to jokes around.... he always complaining tat he has a chubby face tat makes him looks like he does not hav neck.... SD... d fat me... being complained by lip tat d blouse tat i'm wearing does not match my pants... aiksz....aHah... is it looks special?? it is BBQ Plaza... these are d food we ordered... pork set for 3-4 person... it looks a lot but actually it full of vege at d bottom... it cost bout RM60 for d meals....

YouHoo..... gonna start to eat lo....

wonder y sam loves to take pics of us... hahaha....

nice deco.... simple but striking... 1U old wing.....

theme of d christmas deco: alice in d wonderland.... 1U new wing....

.: Boring :.

Since my last event, 11th Orientation Series Events had significantly comes to an end last trimester, my life started to change from BUSY, HECTIC, OCCUPIED to DULL, BORING, TEDIOUS.... once, i do hav a strong feelings of not leaving d BIG family so soon as it really giv me a good memories n a place to learn lots of things but at last i must also believe tat it's time for me to lay down everything...

Suddenly feel tat i'm gtting older n older... no matter in aging, physically or mentally... sometimes i will behave like an old lady start thinking and flashing back d life i used to be when i 1st came into Uni life uncontrollable... time really flies n in a blink of eyes, it had comes to my final year of study life... i'll step into another stage of life tat every1 must encounter very soon.... kinda miss d innocent n childish me... although sometimes will get red eyes n bad critics from others who thought i'm acting innocent but i still enjoy d simple n uncomplicated lifestyle... i can cry when i'm gloomy n depressed n laugh happily when i'm in d chill mood....

Past SHINDEE:

Energetic, Active, Youthful, Innocent, Childish, Blur, Simple, Straightforward, Happy-go-lucky...

Current SHINDEE:

Pasive, Unmotivated, Complicated, Think-twice, Dunno how 2 express d feelings in my heart no matter verbally or written....

me~ me~ me~....

.: Vacations of Delta Trimester Break (cont'):.

DAY 2:

we woke up quite early d next morning as we know very well tat we paid for trip is for enjoying but not for sleeping... we r quite thrill as the plan for 2nd day was to play in d water for for d whole day....

here we start n let d pics do all d explaining....

blur blur look of KF... happy but sleepy look of PS... n energetic look of ME~~ wahaha.... we took this pic while waiting for d instructor...

our dry look b4 river croosing... d groupmates : me, lip, zyin, kf, choon, xuan hao n xin you n others.. sampat ppl form a sampat gang.... hehe...

our wet look after river crossing... to us who never been to national service b4 river crossing is quite nervous and exciting activity... d depth of d river is almost 30 metres...

to me, this is d most memorable activity of d trip... i love canoeing so so so much.... i love water activities.... I"M LOVIN' IT!!!! all of us were addicted to it until we almost forgotten about our lunch...

not only cinemas provide with couple seat... canoes oso come with "couple seat"... haha... don't play play yea... it's kinda fun....

after lunch, another water activity is awaiting for us... haha... look our funny pose... creative ya... it's water tubing...

"wat is water tubing?", i ask...

"it is an activity which u play with d tube (tayar)....", d committee told us...

haha... swt answer....

DAY 3:

we hav some kinds of weirdo sports which played by d natives there(according to d people in charge).... it's amusing and enjoyable as it is quite odd and fresh to c this kind of games.....

yoohoo.... it's team building activity... again in d river.... we made d raft ourselves.... do u believe it?? 6 tubes with 18 ppls on it... of course we hav swimmer "engines" in d water behind our raft to push us move faster....

does i mentioned bout d meals there?? it is super duperb EXPENSIVE!!! every meals cost us RM8... even breakfast with breads n economy fried bihun/rice which is not nice at all....

ta dang~~!! here it is... RM 8 "hotel breakfast"...

d last memory of all d participants and committees.... it is quite easy to spot me.... haha... coz i'm d only 1 wearing yellow blouse....

.: Vacations of Delta Trimester Break :.

Me n my close frens in my course had been discussed about d ENDAU ROMPIN TAMAN NEGARA trip since d tourism club started to set up d booth for registrations.... 2 of my frens decided to join on the trip at last.... they urge me to join as well as it's like a decade ago we been on a trip 2gather... it's a golden opportunity to relax with frens.....

at 1st i wanted to join on the trip but does not hav d courage to make on my own decisions.... as i always tell my frens tat i suspect myslef having DECISION MAKING PHOBIA..... i dare not make my own decisions.... dunno since when i turn into this weak characteristics.... hate it when i started to regret on d decisions tat i made.... but at last lip decides to go on the trip...

at 1st i got a little disappointed to d organizing committees as they never send any notifications to me about d trip tat they promised me during my payment of fees... at least my frens received their sms but i didn't received any...

DAY 1:

we push off from cyber on 19th of Nov 3am.... we feel so excited as it's our 1st time been to TAMAN NEGARA....

Our footstep... before depart....






My sleeping "look".... so clever huh hide inside d jacket as i know sure got some "culprit" like to take pics of sleeping...

After 7 hours of journey in d bus, at last we reach our destinations..... quite tired as cant really hav a nice sleep in d bus...

look at d words properly.... it's TAMAN NEGERI!!!! we came 2 d wrong place???? or we being fooled???? or d committees does not do an early research and site visiting??? we pay for TAMAN NEGARA~~

The 1st pic 4 of us took 2gather.... all in black.... wahahaha.....

Our Group~~ David(1st person), our leader.....

Preparing to go on our 1st activity of the trip...

JUNGLE TREKKING~~

also can be known by LITCHES SEEKING~~ coz most of d time we only look at d ground to avoid d scary litches.....

The great waterfall.... my 1st time 2 c such a nice scene of waterfall with my own eyes.... it is like d waterfall we always seen in movie tat located in china....

after came bac from jungle trekking, we feel like our legs and body are not belongs to us...

it is so so so tired after walk for 4 hours non stop... but it is a good experience for ppl like me who does not like exercise... we sweat a lot...

tat nite we went to bed quite early... coz d nite activity was canceled n we are totally free after dinner...

but but but~~!!! this is wat we saw b4 we went to bed... tat makes me n zyin, who sleep on d floor, cant hav a nice sleep for d whole nite....

a GIGANTIC lizard... i bet none of d folks who spend their whole life in d city seen this creatures b4... it is about 30cm... SCARY~~!!!

.: Seasonality Feelings :.

so long i never have this feelings dy... suddenly d weird feeling come bac again.... i know 1 of these days i sure will 4get it.... i joz need time... this is wat i tell myself... all the time..... i must not be bother by it anymore....

i'm coping it with all my determinations... i am not d past person i used to be anymore... everything has changed... SLOWLY... without noticing... it this called grown up??? i dunno....

i am undergo-ing REFORMING now.... the process is like eating bitter medicine.... it is hard and difficult to swallow all the things at the beginning... but d results of it is d most important..... hopefully i can go through all these barriers by my own.... at least proof to myself that i had grown up.....

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this sem.... i feel i become very lazy and sluggish... i love to procrastinate.... will do everything on last mins... study for exams.... lab test.... assignments.... i joz giving excuses for tat...

joz now i got lab test.... i had prepared for tat... but my stupidness n carelessness caused me din notice d paper have 2 pages.... i joz finish 1 page.... n glad tat i know how 2 do... so dumb n silly.... luckily my lec called me n giv me a 2nd chances...

this lessons let me feel tat this world is full of hopes... one will have the "take 2" opportunities in life if they are given a second chances.... i wanna keep this thankful feelings... to remind me it is important to giv a person a 2nd chances... so i decided to wrote this down...

** i promised myself not 2 b so spiritless n lazy... i must live my coming Uni life to the fullest...**

.: Everything starts with Thought :.

Control ur thoughts, else it will turn into words;

Control ur words, else it will turn into actions;

Control ur actions, else it will turn into behavior;

Control ur behavior, else it will turn into characteristics;

Control ur characteristics, else it will ruin ur life~~

Hence, the moral value is we must control well our thoughts in order to form a good characteristics..

Perhaps, should start control d DEVIL in d heart from now~~